30. 6. 2015

30. června 2015 v 19:53 | Elouise
Hey Cindy,

Ive been thinking during cleaning the toilette and I think that there are a lot of things in the world which I dont think are right. You see, I started learning Hebrew and I think that I should probably start to teach myself Arabic cause it will possibly get usefull and from the same reason I should probably also learn Russian. And the reason is that I think theyre gonna be the next bosses of the world and its sad but its true.

And you know maybe I coulda change a lot of things in the world if I would really want to and if I would work really hard you know, but maybe there are some things I shouldnt try to change even if I dont like them. Cause life and world are not always good but theyre not meant to be. You know, maybe there are just bad thing which are meant to be and happen. So maybe even if I would be able to change some stuff I shouldnt try to cause its wrong in some point of view you know. But how do I know, how do I recognize and differentiate?

Let me know when you figure it out,
yours
Elouise
 

9. 5. 2015

9. května 2015 v 15:15 | Elouise
Hey Cindy,
lately Ive been thinking about how much is our life and the world around us made from our decisions. About a month ago I decided that Im trong enough to make my own decisions. And thats a change, a huge change. The moment when you realize that you are the one who decides about how your life is gonna be. We are made of choices we have and especially the ones we use and then we have to live with them. Sometimes (or maybe most of the time) youre forced to decide about important things in a moment. Its usually just a second which decides about your future. Sometimes I wonder how my life would go if I acted differently. If I said something different in an important time of my life. Well, I will never know that and I prabably shouldnt think about "what if" but sometimes its pretty interesting. If youre wondering whats the point of all these thoughts - it is the fact that right now I have to make a very important choice and I really have just no idea what to do. I know that you cannot help me cause in the end it all depends on me but Id like you to try to help me figure out what to do. Last month was a month of changes. And now it seems like my future is gonna be very changing, full of new experiences and new people. The main things is that Im gonna move to England for a year which will be very challenging and a great experience and a big change which if actually great even if I feel a bit nervous bout the whole thing. Im ready to do it, I just dont know yet how exactly. Cause there are two optional schools I can go to and each one has its pros and cons so its really hard (and also important) to decide. Hope youll help me, just let me know.
Yours,
Elouise

27. 4. 2015

27. dubna 2015 v 17:45 | Elouise
Hey Cindy,
life sucks. Like it really really truly sucks. But you know what? Its probably not gonna get better. So the best things to do is just suck it up and go with what youve got, cause maybe its the best youll ever get. Plus it depends a lot on you and on what you think and do about it. Get it? ;)
Let me know,
yours
Elouise
 


10. 4. 2015

10. dubna 2015 v 22:05 | Elouise
Hey Cindy,
today Ive got a story to share with you (sharing with friends is always good). Its actually a story which happened to me like almost a year ago. It was somewhere between spring and summer and it was really hot so I wore just that shorts and a shirt and probably also sun-glasses but that was all. And I went out just because I couldt stay at home. I was gonna meet one of my friends but I had some time before that. And I was just around the railway station and when I was going down the street there just appeared one guy who stopped me and said "Hi" (he said it in english which was not a big deal cause I did understand him but it was aldo kinda weird cause it meant he is a stranger). Well, Im that kinda girl who is (almost) never afraid of anything so I answered and thets how the conversation began. It was nice, he invited me to cup of coffee (well, I couldnt say no to that ;)) and we talked. He explained he is from South Africa (he was black and around 26 I guess) and that he is just working here for a couple of onths for his company which sent him here. Then he asked me about myself and I told him Im 16 but actually at that time I was not yet 15. When he asked me if I have a boyfriend and then it just all started to be weird so I said yes and we decided to be just friends. He wanted to see me again as soon as possible but I didnt wanna see him anymore so when he asked me for my number and gave him the wrong one. In the end I said I gotta go to see my father cause we are going shopping (which was so silly and it had nothing to do with truth but he trusted me) and then with his plan to have a lunch and then go shopping the next time we see each other I left and have hopefully never seen him again. Hope he is back in Africa. I mean we had a nice time and everything but I just didnt want anything else. One time was nice but t for me it was just enough. Do you understand? There are just people you spend some time with and its really fun but you still sont wanna see them ever again you know what I mean?
Let me know,
yours
Elouise

About the project

8. dubna 2015 v 21:17 | Elouise
This is basically my diary. And it doesnt have to be grammatically perfect or anything cause thats just not the point. I just wanna try to express what I want.

8. 4. 2015

8. dubna 2015 v 21:10 | Elouise
Hey Cindy,
I think Im falling in love with my best friend. And that is a problem. I mean: relationship always mess up everything so I dont wanna quit to be his best friends and start to be his girlfriends cause theres no way back (people say there is but it never actually happen cause its basically not possible). So I wont tell him until he would like it too (which I cant recognize but I guess if he would like it he would say something). Im OK with our friendship but its slowly starting to be not enough. I can control myself and not do anything but Im not sure for how long can I live like this. But I just really dont wanna loose him and Im really not good at long-lasting relationships (like I never actually had one, just ones and at that time I found myself cheating cause I just couldnt stand it anymore which I know is just awful but it is what it is). Oh God, how much I hate waiting... You know what I mean?
Let me know
yours
Elouise

30. 3. 2015

30. března 2015 v 19:51 | Elouise
Hey Cindy,
I know you dont exist but thats alright for me. I just want you to know that I dont care about it cause its obviously not your fault. Anyway, Im gonna write to you hoping youll understand every time I need you to. Is that OK?
Let me know,
your
Elouise

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